So, back to Ben's memories- we are redecorating our bedroom and I feel as this is the best place to put Ben's memories. I've been thinking that I want to purchase this:
I'm thinking this storage ottoman should be sufficient to keep Ben's memories in. The thought of putting Ben's 'things' in a box is not a great thought, but our house is just not big enough to display all of his things. I've been unable to get rid of anything that was linked to Ben. I think Jason probably thinks I'm crazy for wanting to keep Ben's bedding even when Ben never layed in the crib. But to me, it WAS Ben's. Once our bedroom is complete, I will proudly display some of Ben's memories wherever I can.
I do realize that some of these things DO seem silly to keep, but I'm just not ready to let them go. Such as all the gift bags I saved from my baby shower. What I'll do with them, who knows!! Or the vases in which I received flowers.... or the ten newspapers we have that contain Ben's obituary. Throwing them away just doesn't seem right.
Ben's angelversary is in a few weeks and we still don't have anything planned. I'm a little stuck on whether we should be celebrating his birthday or grieving his loss?!?! Should it be a happy or a sad day?!? I am pretty sure that I would like to find some sort of special gift to give to the OB office and the Labor and Delivery department where Ben was born. I also am pretty sure that I would like this day to be something special JUST between Jason and I. I'm not sure I'll be up to being around a bunch of people. I'm still a bit worried whether we'll receive birthday cards in the mail or sad, sappy 'Thinking of You' cards.
OK... well, now that I went a little off track with this post- I have the weekend off and really need to find the motivation to clean and organize this house. Our carpet should be arriving on Monday or Tuesday next week so Jason might lay the carpet padding sometime this weekend. I'm also hoping to get the trim painted and put up in our spare bedroom (considering it has been without trim for over a year now!). AND possibly start working on getting the upstairs windows trimmed as well. Just can't wait to get the nursery done. It's been so nice to be able to sit up there in our glider and just relax and think about how things are about to change here in the Hanna house!
Time to go-- Jason just pulled up and I'm hoping he was able to pick up our packages!